Something To Think About and Journal Notes

SOMETHING TO THINK ABOUT

    Those who contemplate the beauty of the earth find reserves of strength that will endure as long as life lasts.  There is something infinitely healing in the repeated refrains of nature——the assurance that dawn comes after night, and spring after winter.  Rachel Carson

JOURNAL NOTES

        I’ve been thinking about Cumpy a lot lately. This time last year he was sick but he was still with us.  The feeling is the same whether it’s with a pet, whom we considered a family member, or a parent or child.  There is the knowledge that no matter how much you love them there are things in life you cannot change.  You love them and feel the loss even before it happens.  The angst of knowing you do not control the future and must live with whatever comes.  You give your heart willingly to something that is finite and the pain of loss will be yours to bear.  But how empty life would be if we withheld our love because it hurt too much when they were gone.  I miss Cumpy and tears come easily in my weak moments.  But I’m willing to accept that to have all the memories.

     Now, Roger and I  both believe Cumpy sent us a kitty, not to replace him, but to fill the emptiness in our hearts.  We have Sunshine; the most beautiful Siberian Forest Cat ever.  But he seemed lonely in some ways.  So, we took a change that our relationship with Sunshine might change and we adopted two kittens.  Freya is black and white and all girl.  Ragnar is all silvery gray and has a boys name even though she is a girl.  She is more tomboy than girl.  They are all wonderful kitties.  (I have included photos in the About Us section.). Our home is complete again.  Cumpy knew it would take more than a kitty to fill the pain and emptiness so he sent us three.  Cumpy was always very, very smart.  So, I hope if anyone loses their pet, who also happens to be their companion and friend, don’t close the door, grieve and wait for life to send you happiness.

Roger had been reflecting also and I have included his thoughts.  

     I cannot hold the box which contains the ashes of our Cumpy because to do so reminds me that I am holding him, as if he were alive but no longer able to share in the love that both Cindy and I had for him , and Cumpy for us.  I don’t know if the grieving period will ever end, but sharing the affection of three new kittens relieves us of the immediate sense of sadness that lives with us even after death.

I included the quote from Rachel Carson because it speaks of renewal.  Losing love and gaining love is renewal and it is available to all of us if we will wait for the healing period to pass.  I have talked to those that chose life without any pet after the death of the one or ones they loved.  Roger and I tried it for three months and found that realizing nothing can replace what was lost, giving a home and love to those that need it is absolute renewal.